day 167: almost time

It's almost time for summer days to saunter completely out of view. I'm really seeing that tonight. It's 7:30. The sun is still beating down, not close to setting yet. My kids are jamming to the Soul Surfer cd while taking their baths, imagining they're riding some killer waves (any bets on how wet that carpet's gonna be after the three of them are done?). Tank tops and shorts are starting to pile up, waiting to be put in boxes until they reappear months from now, when we'll swear they somehow shrunk. It's almost time.

It's almost time for a new thing for me. For us. Something I put into motion today. But something that has me shakin' in my boots. Cause it is exciting.....but yet for me, the perpetual planning as far in advance as possible person, it has me nervous. And I'm overwhelmed to think of the to-do list I need to create and pull-off, somehow. And that stresses me out even more to think that I haven't even made that to-do list yet. (sigh) (yes, I know I'm speaking cryptically. it's intentional. I'll tell you later. when it's time.)

It's almost time to think of the "h" word. I actually had a dream about that last night, but it was unsettling. Perhaps because, throughout it all, I knew I'd wake up to it all being untrue. But, dreams or not, it is inching closer. Not close enough that I'm counting down the days, but closer. We've already passed the point of not being able to send more mail. We're close to the time to start wondering when those large and cumbersome foot lockers will show up at my door, thanks to Fed Ex. Close to starting in on that list of things that really should get done before he shows up at my door step. Very soon. It will be that time.