day 160: little things

The past few days, it's been the little things that have been haunting me.

Some of them I've said before...so bear with me if I say them again.

Tonight I needed two jars opened for supper. The kind with lids that are screwed on. Way too tightly. And with no man around, I either don't use that for supper, or I get bound and determined to open them. I usually go with the latter, using whatever innovative techniques I can conjure up.

Two Colts pre-season games so far. And without giving attention to the fact that they've lost miserably in those two games, they're just not fun to watch yet. Not without someone to watch them with.

When I need time to chill, just me, or when there's something I need to do that'd be easier with just me (namely: grocery shopping), I can't just leave the kids with Dad. It requires much more coordination than that. And yes, I know there are tons of people who have offered to help. But sometimes that coordination is more effort than it's worth.

Two weekends from now, we're going camping. Different from a normal year, this is the first we've gone camping in 2011. And while I'm excited to be able to take the girls to do one of their favorite things (thanks to friends who are willing to come with and help me out), I'm not really looking forward to it, when it means I'm minus one.

Once home from school, during the madness of making supper, checking homework, unpacking lunches, picking out the next day's outfits, doing my own homework, keeping the house work somewhat kept up, there's no one for me to unwind with. No one for me share my day's frustrations with. No one to sit next to on the couch while the kids are in bed (and usually at least one wanders back out of bed for some very unimportant reason) and waste an hour watching Man -vs- Wild or part of a movie we've seen two dozen times already and I secretly loathe (The Negotiator).

I hate it that my alarm clock is the only one to annoyingly sound each and every morning.

I'm ready to be done.