day 15: things I miss today

Are we really only into the second week of this? Time, again, is overwhelming me. I try to keep reminding myself that I'm 5 months into this....6 1/2 to go....which means I'm almost halfways done. And I tell myself that summer will be here before I know it, and then fall.....but regardless, there are just things that I'm really missing today:

1.) His voice. There was no phone call today. I probably jinxed myself with what I said yesterday. I know he probably had a good reason, and I know he probably felt guilty about not walking back to his "office" to call us. And he did manage to post on his blog, which helps. But I still miss his voice.

2.) His presence. The past few days, whenever I see a husband and a wife together who are holding hands, laughing together, whatever, I feel extremely jealous, and the hole in my heart just aches. And at the risk of sounding excessively cheesy, the dumb Tangled movie isn't helping. The girls saved up their money to buy the DVD when it was released yesterday, and you shouldn't be surprised to know that they've watched it three times since bringing it home yesterday evening. Don't get me wrong--I do love the movie. But watching it makes me miss Aaron's presence even more.

3.) His help. (This is the part where I don't need my friends and family to remind me that I'm supposed to call them when I need help. I know that, and I've promised I will.) Technically, I don't need anyone's help with anything right now. There are just things from today that I know if Aaron were home, he would've been there for whatever I needed. Like our trip to the grocery store this afternoon. I miss my late-night treks to Meijer, when Aaron's in charge of keeping the kids in their beds and insuring that the eyelids close and stay closed, and then he'd help me unload the groceries when I'd get home, grabbing one of his favorite snacks to pop open before I can even put it away. Today, Meijer got me and my whole entourage. To my shock and surprise, they were the most well behaved kids in the store. But it's not really about how my kids acted at the store; rather, it's about being able to leave them at home with my husband if I want to. And

then tonight, after supper, we took a quick walk around the neighborhood. If Aaron was home, we wouldn't have had to bring Padame back home after only 5 minutes, because he would've been able to handle her on the leash much better than I could've. Anyways, I miss his help, something that no one else can ever replace.

Aaron, I miss you.