3 things I'm dreading

1.) Find where I last put our blue star flag. It will hang in the front window for the next 7 months. Some days, I'll worry that people will see that, know I'm without a husband at home, and.....my mind goes crazy with the "what-ifs". However, my pride in my husband and what he's doing outweighs the fear. In the window it will hang.....

2.) Dig in my jewelry box to uncover my blue star flag pin. Just like the flag, I haven't gone through a deployment without it, pinned to my shirt, whenever I leave the house. Although I despise the hole it leaves in each shirt, it's nothing compared to the hole inside my heart....

3.) Search the craft bins for my wide, yellow ribbon. I know there's enough left to tie a big bow around our tree out front. There it will sit, through the spring rains, summer heat, and blustery fall days. It'll be there through whatever comes its way, and so will I.....but not without getting faded, tired, and well-worn....

It's just around the corner.

I'm ready to get this started so that we can finally be on the countdown to be done with this.

But yet, I'm not.