day 71: red on the radar

I'm not much of a tv watching person lately.

Which proved to be a good thing tonight, cause the only thing to watch was the radar. Red, actually. Lots of it. And sirens going off. A little bit of hail. Lots of rain, wind.

And the worst--scared kids. And an equally scared mom trying to console them but not admit for a moment that she was scared, too. Who tried hard to not just break down and cry because if only he were here....it certainly wouldn't be so bad.

Had to wake all 3 up, carry them downstairs, and hunker down in our half bath for 45 minutes. The tiny room was lit by a flickering candle, but I saw 3 sets of eyes that were wide open yet trying to be brave.

Me--I'm about done being brave. Ready to have someone to depend on again. Someone to talk to me. Listen to me. Encourage me. Pick on me. Help me. Sit beside me. That's all.

(but the storms aren't over yet)